Disillusion of a Software Professional, Is this Life?

Office of Dr. Philip Blake, Al Capone's 2nd Ps...
Office of Dr. Philip Blake, Al Capone’s 2nd Psychiatrist (Photo credit: Chicago Crime Scenes)

I have blogged on 11 July 2012, on ‘I would like to be poor’ where  I have made some comments reflecting on Life…..

“Life loses its charm and becomes tedious when one has everything in terms of material comforts.

Some get things too easily.

People long for good food,shelter ,good clothes,Car,Gadgets likeMobile, iPod,Home, a Girl/Boy friend , a job which appears to be satisfying for a while.

They get married.

They postpone be-getting children to ‘enjoy Life’

They work inordinate and ungodly hours, eat junk food, guzzle soft drinks ,Hard Drinks.

On Saturdays/Sundays, they wake up around 12 and laze about, go out for food, sleep , then go out for Dinner and watch movies.

Suddenly they realize that they are ‘burnt out’

They have no desire to do anything.

They leave jobs saying that they want to do things they always wanted to do, forgetting that they chose their Careers on their own and made decisions on their own over every thing.

They become abrasive and irritated and become depressed.

This does not end here.

Once out of job, they try to do some thing which they think they like doing , get disillusioned shortly and start hunting for a job.

Some times they get it immediately, some times they don’t.

They become depressed further and consult a Psychiatrist.

The Psychiatrist tells them that they should get their priorities right and decide on what they like and start doing what they like.

And the whole Cycle begins again!


I saw a forward sent by my son, which I read to day, which showed me how the mechanical pursuit and unnecessary reflection can lead to disillusionment and how man reaches old age.

Read this poignant b ya Software professional.

A Bitter RealityAs the dream of most parents I had acquired a degree in
Software Engineering and joined a company based in USA, the
land of braves and opportunity. When I arrived in the USA, it
was as if a dream had come true.Here at last I was in the place where I want to be. I decided I
would be staying in this country for about Five years in which
time I would have earned enough money to settle down in India.

My father was a government employee and after his retirement,
the only asset he could acquire was a decent one bedroom flat.

I wanted to do some thing more than him. I started feeling
homesick and lonely as the time passed. I used to call home and
speak to my parents every week using cheap international phone
cards. Two years passed, two years of Burgers at McDonald’s and
pizzas and discos and 2 years watching the foreign exchange
rate getting happy whenever the Rupee value went down.

Finally I decided to get married. Told my parents that I have
only 10 days of holidays and everything must be done within
these 10 days. I got my ticket booked in the cheapest flight.
Was jubilant and was actually enjoying hopping for gifts for
all my friends back home. If I miss anyone then there will be
talks. After reaching home I spent home one week going through
all the photographs of girls and as the time was getting
shorter I was forced to select one candidate.

In-laws told me, to my surprise, that I would have to get
married in 2-3 days, as I will not get anymore holidays. After
the marriage, it was time to return to USA, after giving some
money to my parents and telling the neighbors to look after
them, we returned to USA.

My wife enjoyed this country for about two months and then she
started feeling lonely. The frequency of calling India
increased to twice in a week sometimes 3 times a week. Our
savings started diminishing.

After two more years we started to
have kids. Two lovely kids, a boy and a girl, were gifted to us
by the almighty. Every time I spoke to my parents, they asked
me to come to India so that they can see their grand-children.

Every year I decide to go to India… But part work part
monetary conditions prevented it. Years went by and visiting
India was a distant dream. Then suddenly one day I got a
message that my parents were seriously sick. I tried but I
couldn’t get any holidays and thus could not go to India … The
next message I got was my parents had passed away and as there
was no one to do the last rights the society members had done
whatever they could. I was depressed. My parents had passed
away without seeing their grand children.

After couple more years passed away, much to my children’s
dislike and my wife’s joy we returned to India to settle down.
I started to look for a suitable property, but to my dismay my
savings were short and the property prices had gone up during
all these years. I had to return to the USA…

My wife refused to come back with me and my children refused to
stay in India… My 2 children and I returned to USA after
promising my wife I would be back for good after two years.

Time passed by, my daughter decided to get married to an
American and my son was happy living in USA… I decided that
had enough and wound-up every thing and returned to India… I
had just enough money to buy a decent 02 bedroom flat in a
well-developed locality.

Now I am 60 years old and the only time I go out of the flat is
for the routine visit to the nearby temple. My faithful wife
has also left me and gone to the holy abode.


I wondered was it worth all this?

My father, even after staying in India,

Had a house to his name and I too have
the same nothing more.

I lost my parents and children for just ONE EXTRA BEDROOM.

Looking out from the window I see a lot of children dancing.
This damned cable TV has spoiled our new generation and these
children are losing their values and culture because of it. I
get occasional cards from my children asking I am alright. Well
at least they remember me.

Now perhaps after I die it will be the neighbors again who will
be performing my last rights, God Bless them.

But the question
remains ‘was all this worth it?’

I am still searching for an answer……………..!!!





Thanks Anand Ramanan

Note.my son is a Software professional


Author: ramanan50

Retired Senior Management Professional. Lectures on Indian Philosophy,Hinduism, Comparative Religions. Researching Philosophy, Religion. Free lance Writer.Blogger

3 thoughts on “Disillusion of a Software Professional, Is this Life?”

  1. Very thought provoking. We do not take any learnings from life as we grow & by the time you realise it is over the hills. You repent but the time has gone & carry the weight of heavy heart till your death & repeat it in another life ! Kalachakra, I guess.

    No wonder shady Swamis have a good time– they find a breeding ground for recruitment from Software & BPO pool !!


    1. I agree.
      I feel that basic values of Life, if given the go by, this would be the result.
      Contentment and be happy is the recipe for a meaningful Life.


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